Chapter 36 - Secrets

I am looking at the clock. I am waiting in the visitors room for ages now. Ben will be here any minute.
Felipe and Alfonso made sure we have the visitors room all to ourselves. I twisted them around my finger.
The clock hands are moving slowly. Still no sign of Ben. I tap my foot anxiously.

Finally the door opens. Felipe steps inside, followed by Ben. I look into his green eyes and my heart nearly jumps out of my chest. I jump up and run to Ben. I wrap my arms around him and bury my head in his chest. “I missed you so much.” I mumble while choking back the tears.

“I’ll be out there if you need me.” Felipe whispers and leaves the room.

“I missed you too Lynn.” Ben says. My hands are stroking his back and he presses a kiss on my head. “I missed you so much. I hardly slept and there wasn’t a day that I wasn’t thinking of you.” Ben says.

I let the tears run freely. “Same for me, I had many moments that I thought I was going to die because of my broken heart. And for a moment I thought you weren’t coming back and I did not want to live anymore. I am so glad you are here. I can’t live without you.” I say.

Ben lifts my chin “Lynn look at me.” He says and I look into his eyes. “I promised you that I was coming back for you. Why would you think I wasn’t coming back after all?” He asks.

I shrug. “I don’t know. Being alone with my wicked mind is probably not the best thing to do.” I say.

“Ben I got you a belated Christmas present. I made it myself.” I can’t help but sound proud. I hand him over the little package and he opens it.

He takes out the bracelet carefully. “Oh Lynn, it’s beautiful. Can you put it on for me please?” I help him wrapping the bracelet around his wrist. “Yay, it fits.” I clap my hand happily.
“I got you a Christmas present too. But you’ll have to wait for it a bit longer.” Ben smiles.

Ben and I sit down on the couch, my hand on his knee his hand on mine. I can’t say or do anything but stare at him.
Ben is talking but I am not listening. I am only looking at his gorgeous mouth. I can’t wait to kiss him.

I jump up and straddle him. “Lynn…” Ben says, but he can’t finish his sentence. I crush my lips on his mouth and kiss him deeply. I wrap my arms around Bens’ neck and press myself against his body. “Okay, okay. I give in.” Ben mumbles and wraps his arms around me, pulling me closer.

“I missed you Lynn.” Ben whispers when we are both trying to regain our breath. I am slowly closing the buttons of my top. “I missed you too Ben and this.” I smile.
Ben pulls his clothes back on. “You noticed that there are cameras there and there?” Ben asks while pointing at the cameras in the corners of the room. I grin. “I knew, but I never thought about it.”

“You were too horny to think about it.” Ben teases and I chuckle. “I think I was.” I admit.

Ben and I are both dressed and I sit down next to him on the couch. My legs on his legs and my head against his shoulder. “I missed the feeling of being close to you.” I say. Ben gives me a kiss on my forehead. “I have some things to tell you. But it has to wait until everything is arranged.” Ben says. “I will not be able to visit you tomorrow. But I promise to come back on Friday.”

I pull a sad face. “Why not?” I ask. “I will tell you later my love, I promise.” He says. I pout. “I don’t like secrets.”

Ben softly kisses me on my lips. “I will tell you eventually. But until everything is ready. You have to be patient.”

Oh damn, that word again.

“Patience is not in my dictionary Ben.” I grumble. But I’ve got no choice than to give in. He’s not gonna spill the beans anyway.

A soft knock on the door. “Is it safe to come in?” I hear and I start laughing. “Come on in Alfonso.” I say with a smile.

Alfonso comes in. “You need to go back to your cell Lynn. I’m sorry.” He says.

I give Ben one last kiss and hug him tight. “See you Friday my love.” I whisper.
“Till Friday.” He replies before I leave the room.

I tell Aña about my little adventure with Ben. “I am sure Felipe is checking the video tapes right now.” She laughs.

My cheeks turn red. “You think?” I ask. “The pervert.”

“I most certainly think he will. He has the hots for you, you know.” Aña laughs and I blush even more. “I should have thought about the cameras before I got naked.” I giggle.

“I think you made his day. He is probably jerking off right now.” Aña teases me. I nudge her. “Ewww, that’s disgusting.” I laugh.

I tell Aña that I won’t be seeing Ben tomorrow and that he has secrets. “I don’t know what is going on. But he is up to something. And I would like to know what it is. I can’t handle secrets.” I sigh. “He is acting so strange. And he will be away all day tomorrow.”

“You will find out, sooner or later.” She says. “Probably later, because I am stuck here for the next five weeks.” I mutter.

“Can I go out yet?” I ask. “Not yet” Aña replies with a grin.

“Shall we go practice some Spanish again? You never know when you will need it.” Aña suggests. I nod. There is nothing else to do right now.

It‘s not fair, knowing that Ben is around but not actually with me.

How am I supposed to make it through the next day.

I can always rely on Aña. She is distracting my mind from Ben. She forces me to go painting with her and we make a huge painting using only our hands as brushes.
I am having so much fun and the day flies by.
The painting is a huge mess and you can’t see what we actually painted. But that’s besides the point. The only thing that’s clearly visible is a huge heart with the names of Ben and me around it. I smile. I have to show this to Ben tomorrow.

I wake up to the sun that is peeking through the window. I jump out of bed. I will see Ben again today.

Will he spill his secrets today?

Knowing Ben, probably not.

I am anxiously awaiting for him to arrive. I laugh at myself and my weird behavior. It’s all like I am back in my fan girl time two years ago.
With one change this time.

The monkey is mine.

“What took you so long?” I ask when Ben finally arrives. Ben grins. “Me and my morning moods. You know them. I need to sleep in if I don’t want to be cranky all day.”

“You can’t be cranky all day.” I reply with a smile. He leans in for a kiss.
“So, and where were you yesterday?” I ask

“How was your day yesterday?” Ben replies to my question with another question.

“Not falling for that dude.” I poke my finger in his chest. “I was first.”

“Okay Lynn, I’ll tell what I can tell. But don’t force me to tell you more than that.” Ben bites his lip and looks at me.

“Ben what are you up to?” I ask.

“Promise me Lynn.” Ben says.

“ I promise.” I reply.

Ben grabs my hands and looks at me. “I went to Erica yesterday. I had to discuss a lot of things with her. And that’s actually all I can tell.” Ben says.

I pout. “I hate that you are having secrets from me Ben.” I pull my hands back from his grip and step backwards.

“I promise you that they are all good secrets and you will like it when I can share them with you.” Ben assures me.

But I have a hard time to believe that. Secrets and Lynn. Two things that don’t go well together.